What's going on inside my head?

for the 50th time!

2005-09-16T11:10:00.000-04:00

firt of all, this is officially my 50th post on this blog :D ... I'm so happy :P but that's just random and beside the point...

so a lot of stuff has been going on in the 2+weeks it's been since my last post... but I don't care all that much to go into it... I'll prolly be updating this a little more often in the near future, but who knows...

I got so much stuff buzzing around my head right now I don't even know what, if anything, I want to write about... life is frustrating in so many ways...I think I not going to really say anything in here, if you want to know what's going on with me, ask me, otherwise, you can just be satisfied to know I am alive, and have a great day...

I'll put more here when I have something to write about and/or if I get my thoughts organized...

where to go? school! sigh

2005-08-30T15:00:00.000-04:00

so... today's the first day of school for me... I've had 2 classes so far, and 1 more later... nothing much to report on, my philosophy teacher seems interesting, he seems kinda wierd too though... for CINS, it seems kinda like it might be a dull class, I'll have to wait and see though... math is in 2 hours, and spanish starts in 3 weeks or something, so yeah...

BIG NEWS!: yesterday, I (finally) got my learners permit! and also had my first experience ever behind the wheel of a car... it's kinda wierd driving around a cemetary to get a feel for handling a car, and not toping about 20 MPH the entire time, lol... but I guess that's a good way to start, it's a good system of roads, and there's no traffic, so especially since I'd never been behind the wheel, it was very helpful...

a few other semi-strange things have been going on, but nothing I can really talk about, so that's all from me...

"promise or a dare, I would jump if I knew you'd catch me, staring over the edge, I can't tell if you'll be here for me, I close my eyes and make a wish, turn out the lights and take a breath, I pray that when the whick is burned you would say that it's all about love!"

Since the last time...

2005-08-20T11:52:00.000-04:00

ok, so a ton of stuff's been going on since my last real blog entry... I don't know where to begin...

well, I have started working at my new job... it's ok, not great, but I'm told the money will get better if I give it a little lime... and I'm already making more then I was in the past, though not much...

other then that, I have registered for school, and I believe this semester will be really easy... I taking Spanish 1(I was taking stuff about the level of spanish 3 before), Intro to Programing(part of the field I looking to go into), Pliosophy 101(just somthing that already has some interest to me), and Math(I have been studying the book already)... so all in all, gunna be easy...

in other news, our family has a "new to us" car... my mom got T-boned in a parking lot that totaled our van, so after a bunch of logistics, we have a new, used car... it's niiicer then the van was, but it cost us more then the money we collected on the van, so now we sorta in debt...

also, I was in Ocean City MD earlier this week with my dad, that was lots of fun, nothing much to say asbout it other then "I suck at mini-golf"...

"I will be here, when you feel like being quiet, when you need to speak your mind, I will listen, and I will be here, when the laughter turns to crying, through the winning, loosing, and trying, we'll be together, cause I will be here..."

New Song

2005-08-19T20:10:00.000-04:00

first off all, sorry for the lack of updates, been working a LOT and been really tired, but I prolly going to post a real blog entry in the next 2 days, so expect me to follow through on that...

secondly, I just changed the song on here, I'ts David Crowder Band's "Only You":

"Take my heart, I Lay it down
At the feet of you whose crowned
Take my life, I’m letting go
I lift it upto You who’s throned

And I will worship You, Lord
Only You, Lord
And I will bow down before You
Only You Lord

Take my fret, take my fear
All I have, I’m leaving here
Be all my hopes, be all my dreams
Be all my delights, be my everything

And I will worship You, Lord
Only You, Lord
And I will bow down before You
Only You Lord

And It’s just you and me here now
Only you and me here now"

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2005-08-03T02:03:00.000-04:00


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alot of stuff -> work

2005-07-29T00:15:00.000-04:00

ok, the reason why I not blogged in a while, and since I have not yet posted the extended vacation summary, I been REALLY BUSY... tuesday was the first day home, and we just wanted to relax... but I went out to se a movie and hung out with friends... that's relaxing enough, and over Wed-Fri, I work about 20 hours... I guess I have had some time I could have blogged, but ZI think you'll all have to get over it...

anyway, about our vacation, here's the long verson... on Saturday, we flew out west, anfter a very interesting, totally deja-vu layover in denver(ask me if you don't understand this), we arrived in Salt Lake City, Utah... we met up with my Mom's friend, Sunny, and we stayed in salt lake that night... the next morning, we got up early to go see the performance and broadcast of the Mormon Tabernacle Chior... after the preformance, we went to see the great salt lake(I had seen it beofer, and I told them there was nothing to see, but I got the responces of "how can you come to salt lake city, and not see the great salt lake?")... after that detour, we started heading south... We stayed in Cedar City that night...

Monday, we went to Bryce Canyon, I have a bunch of pics of that, and I will post the link to them when we get our pics online... We hiked a little down a trail into the canyon, but none of us wanted to have to walk all the way back up, so we didn't go too far... instead, we drove up to a bunch of lookout points, and got a bunch of different views, we also saw the natural bridge from one of these, that was kool...

Tuesday we packed up again, and headed to Zion national park... we took a trail from the far end of the park, and waded in the river there a couple times, but kinda just hiked most of the time there... amazing how the scenery can be so different in such close areas... around nightfall we arrived at the north rim of the grand canyon... this is when I lost Cell reception...

Wednesday was spent at the north rim of the GC, and then driving the long windy trail down to the south rim... we spent some time in both places this day... I had not yet re-gained cell service :P

Thursday, we went back to the south rim, and spent some time there... took a tram ride up one of the trails, stopping at several viewpoints along the way(ran into some people formerly from baltimore, wearing thier B-more sports hats, and me in my ravens jersey lol)... then we took off again, and headed back north... we went through monument valley on our way to staying in Blanding Utah... late that night as we were arriving in Blanding, I finally re-gained Cell service... had been without it for over 50 hours :P ...

Friday, We drove through Arches National Park, got to see soem great scenery there... this day was mainly for moving though, as we ended the day at Sunny's house in Vernal UT, where I got online and IMed sdome people whio may be reading this, and also where I posted the last blog entry... We spent Saturday there, and didn't really do much of anything. I was on and off of the puter all day, but everyone was so tired from the previous 6 days, that we all just wanted a day to really relax(1..2..3..AHHHHHHHH!!!)...

Sunday we got back to doing stuff... we had a white water rafting trip on the schedule... lots of fun... I had only been once before, and the one time I had gone, it was REALLY slow... I mean, you were getting caught on the rocks more then not... this time was much different, lots of rapids, and even a few swimming spots... I went swimming 3 times, 2 of my own will... once was where we stopped for lunch, we were told we could swim out and catch the rapids, ride them down stream a little, then get back to shore, and get back for lunch... the 2nd time was not of my will, I will not go into details, but lets just say, I was pushed in from behind... the third time was as we were floating down stream, a bunch of us jumped in...this trip was the final peice of the puzzle that led to an EXHAUSTING vacation... aren't they supposed to be relaxing?... oh well it was a lot of fun... the next day we flew home, after a 4 hour layover in Chicago due to rain...

so there you have it, 10 days, and an exhausted me...but I'll live... I posted a few pics on the link in the post below, but I will have a link soon where you can see many many more... until then...

"I'll take you back, always, even when your fight is over now, even when your fight is over now, I'll take you back, always, even when the pain is coming through, even when the pain is coming through, I'll take you back"

ahm ehn ewtaw!

2005-07-23T03:05:00.000-04:00

yes yes, as propper english would say, I'm in utah, but the hillbilly looking text rox... anyway, our trip is actually nearing it's end... I tryed to mobile blog, but it didn't work apparently, so it's only the 2 mobile blogs for me(they're really short cause it won't let me e-mail more then 133 characters)... now I have internet, so I get to write a full sized entry...

http://photobucket.com/albums/b93/tjozrk/

that is a few images I took the time to upload tonight, we have over 750 pictures total, but I didn't have anywhere near enough time to get all of them online...

so, from the begining, even though I blogged mobily... day 1, we saw the 3960th broacast of the mormon tabernacle chior, then headed out to the great salt lake. we later drove through park on our way south... day 2, we were not far from bryce canyon, so we saw that for the majority of the day... day three, we packed up and headed to Zion, where we did some hiking, and wading in the river...on wednesday and thursday, we were at the north and south rim of the grand canyon(respctively)today, we drove through arches national park, on our way back north... still to come is: tomorrow, unplanned dayt, with a few things we want to do sometime... and Sunday, a white water rafting trip... gunna be lots of fun...

fyi, though this is a full sized entry, it's an abreviated depiction of our trip, I will make a much longer post back home, and I will also have many more pictures to show and talk about...

until then...

"From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea, Creation's revealing Your majesty, From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring, Every creature unique in the song that it sings, All exclaiming, INDESCRIBABLE!"

Yesterday we saw bryce canyon,

2005-07-19T14:20:00.000-04:00

Yesterday we saw bryce canyon, and today we're going to zion national park... its amazing countryside out here, yall should see it...

So here i am, day

2005-07-18T00:24:00.000-04:00

So here i am, day two of my trip... though the first day was just flying, and it started at 5:25... anyway, i'm in utah, fun fun...

Coming Soon! (to a theater near you)

2005-07-11T11:59:00.000-04:00

OMG! it's only like 5 days till I leave on the family vacation! w00! ok, that's kinda random cause I don't have much else to mention, but hey, it's fun to make random exclamations...

but anyway, this means I have lots to do, such as getting new shoes, and maybe a few new peices of clothing... but it's worth it...

in other news: the quitting countdown has begun... I only have 5 more days at work(including today)! YIPPIE!!! and I get to be the last remnant of the sihj group(which 4 of whom worked there) to finally be free...

"I close my eyes, and I see your face, if home's where my heart is, then I'm out of place, Lord won't you give me strength to make it through some how, I've never been more homesick then now"

The Guys' Rules

2005-07-08T21:26:00.000-04:00

I thought this was funny, so I'm reposting it:

At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down. Finally, the guys' side of the story.
(I must admit, it's pretty good.)

We always hear "the rules" from the female side. Now here are the rules from the male side. These are our rules!
Please note... these are all numbered "1"
ON PURPOSE!

1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it b! e.

1. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 days.

1. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't expect us to act like soap opera guys.

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of t! he ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one.

1. You can either ask us to do something or tell us how you want it done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.

1. Christopher Columbus did not need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not a color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say nothing," we will act like nothing's wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, expect an answer you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine...Really!
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1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball, the shotgun formation, or monster trucks.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round is a shape.

1. Thank you for reading this. Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight; but did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.

"I just wanna get mugged at knife point, to get cut enough to wake me up, cause I know that I don't wanna die, sitting around watching my life go bye..."

couldn't come soon enough

2005-07-07T16:53:00.000-04:00

though it's not the perfect job, today I got hired at a Local Friendly's to start on 7/30... and so my time at CT finally will come to an end... bout time... woo hoo, look how happy I am(said monotone)...

anywayz, not too much else to say, just been living my boring life not doing anything...

"what to say? Lord it's, you who gave me life and, I can't explain just how, much you mean to me now, that you have saved me Lord, I give all that I am to you, that everyday I can, be a light that shines your name!"

The search is on

2005-06-30T03:06:00.000-04:00

been a while since I spilled my brain, so here it is...

last night I saw Batman Begins... good movie... go see it...

today was the REAL start of my job hunt where I got dropped off in the middle of catonsville and worked my way home putting in apps at a few places... I will only name them if I get a job from them and then will report that here, so check back for a update on the job search...

the one thing I hate is when you have to take a personality profile with your app... those are not fun... really boring and a waste of time cause I'm sure most people lie to make themselves look good for a job... frustrating...

"Deep enough to dream in brilliant colors I have never seen, Deep enough to join a billion people for a wedding feast, Deep enough to reach out and touch the face of the One who made me, and oh, the love I feel, and oh the peace, do I ever have to wake up?"

Frail

2005-06-24T09:22:00.000-04:00

as those who visit here often have noticed I changed the song on this page a few days ago:

"Convinced of my deception
I've always been a fool
I fear this love reaction
Just like you said I would

A rose could never lie
About the love it brings
And I could never promise
To be any of those things

If I was not so weak
If I was not so cold
If I was not so scared of being broken growing old
I would be...
I would be...

Blessed are the shallow
Depth they'll never find
Seems to be some comfort
In rooms I try to hide

Exposed beyond the shadows
You take the cup from me
Your dirt removes my blindness
Your pain becomes my peace

If I was not so weak
If I was not so cold
If I was not so scared of being broken growing old
I would be...
I would be...
I would be...
I would be... Frail"

"why do you Run, why do you hide oh don't you know I just, just want to be with you, to be with you!"

Eat Mor Chikin!

2005-06-23T10:53:00.000-04:00

as soon as I notice my string of bloggings, the string is broken... well I guess that makes sense... had to come to an end eventually, and doing nothing makes it hard to keep going for even a short period of time... not that I ever said I was trying to post everyday anyway :-P ...

photo scavenger hunts are kool B) :D ... that what we did at Navs this week... we were given a list of items we are suppoed to take a picture of, ex, "your worst nightmare"(a pic of a rack of DVDs at Blockbuster but we made it look like the only thing they had was Hillary Duff), or "not covered by the navigators permission slip"(Josh in the drivers seat of Jasons car with me in the back "screaming" in terror), or "that's just wrong!"(3 of us pretending to pee on a fire at the Wiuff's Fire pit(somthing we have ACTUALLY done before)), or "you're in trouble now!"(pretending to pour Gas on the Wiuff's house, and Josh right behind with a lit match)... we also got a pretty kool group pic of our group in the kids play area at a local Chik-Fil-A(another required pic)...

"Eat Mor Chikin!"

"Life is not what I thought it was, 24 hours ago, still I'm singing spirit take me up in arms with you! and I'm not who I thought I was, 24 hours ago, still I'm singing spirit take me up in arms with you"

refusal to "live"

2005-06-20T14:36:00.000-04:00

ok, I don't know why, but I think I've sub-conciously decided to run one of these blog a day things, though I have not said I will or will not... I just feel like blogging all the time even though I don't have much to talk about...and why would I have much to talk about? I just sit at home a lot of days because no school...

the thing I don't get a break from is work... though I have chossen to not take advantage of work's ability to get me out of the house... by that I mean I am not going to the employee picnic today... the main reason I am not going is cause 1, I don't like the place, and 2, there are not many people there that I have any interest in hanging out with... so again I just sit here and waste my day blogging away... I do have to go to work for actual work today, so I guess that's enough getting out of the house...

"and the day, tonight feels like a million miles away! and these times just won't change, life just stays the same, I'd give anything to see the light of day"

has our education system failed us?

2005-06-19T22:25:00.000-04:00

as I said in my last post, in the scholarship thank you letters there were many gramatical errors... when I was reading them with friends we were almost dieing from laughter... here are some examples:
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(these have in no way been eddited, not even spelling, I am just typing them up from the book)

"Me, *Name removed for privacy*, would like to genuinely thank you from the bottom of my heart..."

"...they put a smile on my face and they have a tendency to put a smile on my face..."

"Scholarship Thank
You Letter

I *name removed for privacy* attend Paul Laurence Dunbar High School and plan to attend Coppin State Uninersity but will be taking classes at Baltimore City Community College in the fall..."

"Dear: Residant of Charlestown Retirment commiety

I am writing this letter to let you all now how much I appreciated That you believe in us student enough to hope us with are college Tuition and etc... I am very luck to have people around me to believe that I am that Import To invost there money into meI am very thankful for you help that you have give me. An I will never forget everyone who has help me be the person that I am to become In the Neithe Future after College. So once again thatnk you for you support and god bless"

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ok, all these people are college students... there were many more that I am not going to mention...

having re-read my letter as well, I found 1 awkward sentence, but nothing else :P

"if you wanna be somebody else, if your tired of fighting battles with yourself, if you wanna be somebody else, change your mind!"

time warp

2005-06-18T14:23:00.000-04:00

guess what I did again!...*waits for reply*... WRONG! I was asleep till after 1PM again this morning... er, afternoon. that's cause yet again I was up till after 5AM last night... er, morning :P I have to work tonight, so it does kinda feel like a wasted day, but it was a saturday when I wouldn't have done anything anyway, so I guess it was worth it...

random thought, my oponents in Madden tend to score 10 and only 10 points on me every game... it been 4 games in a row now... just thought that was intesting even though it's somthing you all didn't need to know...

"it seems, it's always the CRAZY times, you find, you WAKE-UP and realize, it takes, more then your saline eyes, to make things right"

the life of a scholar

2005-06-17T09:10:00.000-04:00

I AM A CHARLESTOWN SCHOLAR!!! not that that's a big deal or anything since almost everyone who has worked there durring thier junior and senior year get the scholarship, but now it's more that my ties are being cut. I no longer care one bity about the job... last night after the scholarship award ceremony, I was hanging with some friends, and we started reading the scholarship thank you letters(it is a requirement that you write a letter thanking the residents for the scholarship in order to get the scholarship). now, remember these are SCHOLARS, so they are going to COLLEGE, yet some of the letters were absolute messes! SO MANY gramatical errors, and even more spelling/typo errors, it was really sad...(my letter, while I don't truly feel a single word I wrote, was gramatically correct...the wonder of spell check O:) )

anywayz, so by getting the scholarship, I now will recieve $500 credit per semester(up to 8)... not like it's the difference between going and not going to college, but it's be at least $3,000 that doesn't have to come out of my pocket...

so besides all that, I have no news since my post yesterday...

"If I was not so weak, if I was not so cold, if I was not so scared of being broken growing old, I would be... I would be... I would be..."

Nothing at all!

2005-06-16T00:38:00.000-04:00

I get really bored without school... having been up till around 4:30 the night before, I woke up ater 1 PM today... and wanna know what makes it worse? I really didn't care... I had no where to be, nothign to do, so it really didn't matter... tomorrow I would care if I woke up that late cause I have a scholars dinner at 5, so my day would be wasted... tomorrow I get the long awaited CT scolarship. I get to no longer worry about what I do at work and how it couyld affect my scholarship. w00t! now if a manager really pisses me off, I can let them have it :D ... I don't plan on doing that however, because when our vacation come in mid july, I am going to have to quit anyway, so I will leave in good standings at that point, and keep a good reference on my resume for a place I worked at for over 3 and a half years while being underpaid, overworked, and had to deal with crappy management...enough about work, if I had a major complaint I would post it in that section of my website...

nothing else now to report... Life is hard, God is good, and I am tired...

"and the first time, that you opened your eyes, did you realize that you would be my savior? and the first breath that left your lips, did you know that it would change this world forever?"
I know it's a "christmas" song, but I had it stuck in my head, and I was listening to it while writing this...

2005-06-10T22:58:00.000-04:00

Which Star Wars Jedi/Sith are you?

Luke Skywalker

You are the last hope for the Jedi order with Yoda and Obi Wan kicking the bucket. There are some tough battles that you have to fight both physically and emotionally, but unlike your father, you have what it takes to win them. The burden is reflected in your expression, which is quite depressing once you start on your long journey. Of course, it could be because before going Jedi-celibate, your only sexual experience came from your sister *shudder*.

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and yet:

Which Star Wars Character Are You?

Anakin Skywalker

You are very ambitious and looking for power. Watch out and listen to your mentors, it may save you from a horrible demise..Remember, you are the chosen one

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well, I'm always a skywalker! ;-) :))

Great Story

2005-06-07T14:15:00.000-04:00

I am copying this from someone's myspace, I thought it was pretty cool :) :

A white woman, about 50 years old, was seated next to a black man. Obviously disturbed by this, she called the air hostess. "Madam, what is the matter," the hostess asked. "You obviously do not see it then?" she responded. "You placed me next to a black man. I do not agree to sit next to someone from such a repugnant group. Give me an alternative seat."

"Be calm please," the hostess replied. "Almost all the places on this flight are taken. I will go to see if another place is available." The Hostess went away and then came back a few minutes later.

"Madam, just as I thought, there are no other available seats in the economy class. I spoke to the captain and he informed me that there is also no seat in the business class. All the same, we still have one place in the first class."

Before the woman could say anything, the hostess continued, "It is not usual for our company to permit someone from the economy class to sit in the first class. However, given the circumstances, the captain feels that it would be scandalous to make someone sit next to someone so disgusting."

She turned to the black man and said "Therefore, Sir, if you would like to, please collect your hand luggage, a seat awaits you in first class." At that moment, the other passengers who were shocked by what they had just witnessed stood up and applauded.

blurbs

2005-06-06T23:51:00.000-04:00

don't know why I'm posting this, but here goes...

"I've been a lier and I'll never ammount to, the kind of person you deserve to worship you, you say you will not dwell on what I did but rather what I do..."
Relient K, Getting Into You

"I'm not ashamed to let you know, I want this light in my to show, I'm not ashamed to speak the name, of Jesus Christ"
Newsboys, Not Ashamed

"I'm on fire when you're near me, I'm on fire when you speak, I'm no fire burning out these mysteries"
Switchfoot, On Fire

"I said the words, I knew you knew, 'Oh God oh God I needed you, I needed you'"
Relient K, I So Hate Consiquences

"I'll wake up to find, your glory defined, and I will finally bow at your feet, I'll lift up your name, in honor and praise, as I cross over Jordan, I know that I'll be running home to you"
Building 429, Glory Defined

"and from my lips, the words I choose to say, seem pathetic, but it's a fallen man's praise, because I love, you, oh God I love you"
Relient K, When I Go Down

"You are my strong tower, shelter over me, beautiful and mighty, everlasting king, you are my strong tower, fortress when I'm weak, you're name is true and holy, and your face is all I see"
Kutless, Strong Tower

as I was standing in the rain today I was singing: "rain rain on my face, hasn't stopped raining for days, my world is a flood, slowly I become one with the mud..."
Jars of Clay, Flood

time to end this pointless post:

"say goodnight to, all your friends who, rock and rolled beside you"
Audio A, It's Over

return to normalcy

2005-05-26T11:19:00.000-04:00

whatever normal may be... over the past week, I have not had school due to the semester ending... what have I don't with my time you ask? well, aside from my normal work at CT... nothing... I literally have done nothing... but that's just fine... this past week has finally been one where I don't have the constant stress of school assignments, and tests, etc...

"catch your breath
hit the wall
scream out loud
as you start to crawl
back in your cage
the only place
where they will
leave you alone

cause the weak will seek the weaker till they've broken them
cou you get it back again?
would it be the same?
fullfillment you thier lack of strength at your expense
left you with no defense
they tore it down"

emotional song and sota describes where I been at...

STAR WARS: Episode III, Revenge of the Sith

2005-05-19T10:50:00.000-04:00

I'm sure most of you know that that final enstallment of the star wars univers was released at 12 midnight last night... most of you also know I was there... and for some reason I feel like writing a review of it...

WARNING: if you have not seen the movie, the following may reveal minor plot points.

The movie opens with an amazing visual scene. 2 Jedi starfighters fly around a republic starship to reveal a massiv battle. this scene was done brilliantly, never before in a star wars movie has there been a space battle of this magnitude, with so much detail in everthing that's going on outside of the main focus. One place Lucas has always fallen short(at least in the prequils) is realistic dialogue. In this amazing visual scene, the witless humor in the needless banter lowers the entertainment value.

A character I personally like was General Grievous. the Alien Android Separatist leader, was a good addition. I don't even know why, but he added depth to the series, maybe because you finally have a serious villan that's not a sith(though he can and does wield light sabers).

Another thing lucas has struggled with is the feelings of his characters. For an unknown reason, Chancelor Palpatine takes a shine to Anakin and starts his work on turning Anakin to the Dark Side. With False Promises to save his love, and the ability to bring peace to the galaxy, Palpatine convinces Anikan that the Jedi are the evil ones.in a desicive scene, Anakin Saves Palpatine's life, and all of the sudden swears his aleagence to him. this scene made no sense to me because two scenes earlier he turns palpatine in to the Jedi council as being a Sith Lord, and says he wished to kill Palpatine. the conversion was far too quick, and did not show realistic reactions and emotions.

Ahhh, the romance is back for no apparent reason, After Anakin has turned to the dark side, and murdered the separatists on Mustafar, Padme confronts him with a loving embrace, only to realize "You have changed!", as if it wasn't obvious, and "you're breaking my heart", as if she ever had a reason to love him. after this, the EPIC battle between Obi Wan and Anakin comences. This is by far the most visually stunning light saber battle in the entire star wars universe, though it lacks the depth of conflict that makes the Luke Vs Vader battle in Jedi the best star wars moment ever(Obi Wan's struggle with being forced to fight his aprentice is stated before hand, but not apparent durring the battle).

1 thing Lucas does know how to do is tragedy. you shouldn't feel this way, but when Obi Wan defeats Anakin, he really makes you feel sorry for the now Darth Vader. As you watch Darth Vader Scream "I hate you!" to Obi Wan, you feel sorry for all he had been put through.

there are a few things I would like to ask George Lucas if I could, mainly about a few apparent inconsistencys between this movie and the origional trilogy:

1. how does Liea remember her mother(reference in Jedi) who died in childbirth?
2. why did the first death star take 20 years or so to build(was being built at the end of Ep. III when Luke is a baby) while the second only took the matter of the few years taken place in shadows of the empire?
3. why does Obi Wan not recognize R2 and 3PO in A New Hope?

overall, though I have picked apart many of the bad things with the movie, I think it was BY FAR the best of the 2nd trilogy, but still worse then any of the movies in the origional trilogy...

Ratings from best to worse:
1. Episode VI, Return of the Jedi(10 out of 10)
2. Episode IV, A New Hope(8 out of 10)
3. Episode V, The Empire Strikes Back(7 out of 10)
4. Episode III, Revenge of the Sith(6 out of 10)
5. Episode I, The Phantom Menace(2 out of 10)
6. Episode II, Attack of the Clones(1 out of 10)

Laterzz

And I so Hate Consiquences...

2005-05-12T22:29:00.000-04:00

though my notices that I'm alive have been fun, I haven't had a real entry in a long time, so here is one...

do you ever feel just physically, emotionally, and spiritually drained? well I do... this school semester is finally coming to an end, but it's been sooooooo stressfull it seems like I have done few things in the past few weeks... I'm talking many things have suffered... I have had less and less time to spend with friends, or with God... it's rough knowing you need help, yet being to stressed and busy to even admit it... anyone know the feeling? it's not a lot of fun

"when I got tired of running from you,
I stopped right there to catch my breath,
there your words they caught my ear,
you said 'I miss you son, come home',
and my sins the watched me leave,
and in my heart I so believed,
the love you felt for me was mine,
the love I wished for all this time,
and when the doors were closed,
I heard no 'I told you so's,
I said the words I knew you knew,
oh God oh God I needed you,
oh God all this time I needed you,
I needed you"

have a wonderful night :)

Laterzz

UH OH!!

2005-05-09T00:43:00.000-04:00

Your Brain is 60.00% Female, 40.00% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female

You are both sensitive and savvy

Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed

But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

is that a problem? :)) (highlight it so you can read the whole thing...)

I SPEAK!

2005-05-05T00:31:00.000-04:00

Your Linguistic Profile:

65% General American English

20% Dixie

10% Yankee

0% Midwestern

0% Upper Midwestern

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

there's a missing 5%, but that's cause I left an answer blank becasue none of them applied...

insanity

2005-04-29T09:44:00.000-04:00

ahhh... the smell of fresh paint fumes... 8-}... I don't knwo what exactly they're doing, but hte entire department I work in at school has been pushed asside so they can paint the walls and clean up a bit... at leat I think that's what they're doing...*looks around suspiciously*

"I would fall asleep only in hopes of dreaming, that everything will be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting, they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor"

_____________________________________________________________
on tuesday night, at navs, we disscussed the things that keep us from having an intimate relationship with God. one of the main things that hit me was when we talked about control. How many times do we take control of our lives, and go wherever we want to go? well, I know I'm guilty of this. but how can we truly have an intimate relationship with our creator if we keep taking control from him and telling him"I don't need you"? that's what we do when we take control of our life away from God... it's like telling him "I'm better then you"... this message really stuck with me partially because I had been talking to a friend and she had heard a very similar message, and was impacted by it... intimacy with God is our orrigional purpose, and who are we to go against our purpose? but it's still a struggle...

sleeeeeeeeep

2005-04-23T11:40:00.000-04:00

can any of you believe that I was asleep around 10 last night? lol, really wierd, cause I'm usually up till around 1, but I guess this past week had finally caught up with me... did I mention I was in bed till about 10:30 this morning?;-)

that's all for now
Laterzz

what a name

2005-04-22T09:46:00.000-04:00

yesterday was crazy... not only did I have 2 tests, but I also had to give a speech... was at school att day studying and speech writing...sound fun? it isn't... especiaslly when about a minute into your speech you realize you screwed up the intro...sihj

after school was good though :-D ... some of you already know why ;-) ... AS some people know, I had been interested in learning how to play guitar... well, I now have the propper hardware to do that :D... my pretty little ibanez... I was showing her off on webcam last night... now I just need to learn to play her... and she needs a name...that'll come in time... I also need a name for my phone, as I was so eagerly told:-P...

I am currently brain-dead cause I didn't get enough sleep... but it's ok! don't tell me I should have gone to bed! that comment was directed at someone and you know who you are;-)

Laterzz

(:|

2005-04-18T12:20:00.000-04:00

I have no idea why, but this song really struck a cord with me when I listened to it today...

"as I fall to sleep
will you compfort me
when my heart is weak
will you rescue me

will you be there
as I grow cold
will you be there
when I'm falling down
will you be there

when I'm in retreat
can I run to you
will my pain release
at your mercy seat

will you be there
as I grow cold
will you be there
when I'm falling down
will you be there
my heart grows cold
will you be there
when I'm falling down

are you saying so
oh, i gotta believe it
are you saying yeah
when your love comes down
I can rest my eyes
feel your grace and power
flood into my life
as my brokeness and your strength collide
when your love comes down
falling down

as I fall to sleep
as I fall to sleep

will you be there
as I grow cold
will you be there
when I'm falling down
will you be there
my heart grows cold
will you be there
when I'm falling down"

I am in fact, still alive

2005-04-18T00:03:00.000-04:00

for any of you who were wondering ;-) yes I am still alive, but my life has been filled with nothingness so I have had nothign to say on here and I still don't have much...

my mom's been out of town this weekend, so if any of you wanted tyo come to a party... then you missed ur chance casue she'll be back tomorrow night... but I don't care, you can come over anyway! :-D

it's late... I'm hyper... I don't know why... there's no way it was the brownies I was eating... that never makes me hyper... but anywayz...

I told you, I have nothing to say...
Laterzz

what day is it? and in what month? ;-)

2005-04-07T11:38:00.000-04:00

well, it's thursday the 7th, and it's in april...

anyone know if anything special is going on today?

no? didn't think so...

oh! I remember!

someone turns 18 today!

wow...

18 years... that's a long time...

I wish I was that old...

oh wait!...

at 2:08 this afternoon(EST), I WILL BE!!!

w00t!

how could I have forgoten that!?

oh wait, I didn't...:-P

*contunues title song*:
"cause it's you and me, and all of the people with nothing to do, nothign to loose, and it's you and me, and all of the people and I don't know why, I can't keep my yeys off of you"

"Happy Birthday! (UHH!) Happy Birthday! (UHH!)
Death and gloom and black despair
People dying everywhere
But Happy Birthday! (UHH!) Happy Birthday! (UHH!)"

"I cannot stand still, I can't be there so sturdy, this cannot be happening, Cause I'm waiting for tonight, I'm waiting for tomorrow, and I'm somewhere in between, what is real just a dream"

"cause it's 17, 18, 19, routine, but here at 23(18 really) it's the same old me,and the one thing in this moment that we all happen to like will only very temporarilly, kinda break the cycle of the double edge sword, of being lazy and being bored"

"one might fall when the other will stand and one might give where the other won't bend, the night is as bright as the sun, never gunna know never gunna look back, never gunna know where we would have ended up at, the end has only begun"

"who am I? that the Lord of all the earth, would care to know my name, who am I? that the bright and mornign star, would choose to light the way, for my ever wandering heart"

*ends random list of song quotes I have running through my head*
Laterzz

Happy Easter!

2005-03-27T23:02:00.000-05:00

anyone go to an easter egg hunt? dye eggs? get a visit from the easter bunny? find a whole bunch of candy? eat a whole bunch of candy? well I did...none of the above... Easter is not about the comercialism of bunnies and junkfood...

with society shoving all this down your throat, we must remember the true meaning of the holiday... we celebrate becasue we remember the sacrifice Jesus made for each and every one of us... the resurection of Gods son is the reason for celebration... so everyone join in, shout to the Lord with songs of worship and praise... not going to start "preaching" so I'll stop here...

"Amazing Love how can it be?
that you my king shgould die for me
Amazing love I know it's true
and it's my joy to honor you
in all I do, I honor you"

happy easter everyone!
Laterzz

last day of school!

2005-03-24T11:02:00.000-05:00

today is my last day of school before spring break! w00t! but it's not time to party yet, I still have an astronomy test, and a speech to give today... not to mention we had to watch the stupidest movie in psyc... anyone seen thirteen? it is the stupidest movie about drugs drinking and sex from a teenager... and to make it worse, I had already seen parts of it... kill me now... oh wait, it's over alrteady, so please don't kill me...

does anyone else get a depressed feeling when you have to return home from a totally awesome experience... I had that on sunday and monday... I was just so happy to be getting closer to God in such an awesome fun way, then all of the sudden, it's back to the old grind...but it's kool...

Laterzz

make an IMPACT 2005 Pt. 2

2005-03-20T18:19:00.000-05:00

wow, where to begin?... first of all, God is amazing! it's inconcievable some of the things he can and does do, awe inspiring...

Music:
Worship
David Crowder Band was the worchip leader this year, and they rocked when they were there... the only thing is that they were only there for half of the meetings... apparently they needed to return home to lead worship at thier home church sunday morning... so while they were there, they were great... on saturday night, a guy went up on stage, and started leading worship...I was like "who is that? and why didn't he introduce himself?"... well, it turned out to be a guy named Mark Cable, who I had never heard of before, but he was on the scedule so whatever... he was ok, and got the job done; Praising the Lord :)...

Concert
I did not attend the concert this year, maily becasue it was superchick, and I don't listen to them, and also having to do with most of the people from my group went out and did some random stuff, so I just joined them...

Workshops
every year you get to go to 3 workshops, picking from a list of like 20...

Faith and Humor

Ted and Lee led this workshop... they were doing scetches of the apostles Andrew and Peter throughout the weekend(more on that later). they described how thier humor uses biblical refrences, some might say "makes fun of the bible" but are truely spreading the word though a medium everyone can relate with: humor...

Driving Force; of America's strongest man

Shane Hammon, world record holder in weightlifting, talked about how God affected his life. How his faith in Jesus Christ gave hime strength to complete his goals. How his prayer, and trust in God will, allowed him to overcome injuries, and perform better then the healthiest of people...

Dating and Relationships

on Sunday, I wet to a workshop on dating and relationships, lead by the main speaker of the confrece, Laurie Polich. the past years I went, they had had a workshop "sex at it's best", but I had wanted it to be a little more then that, so this year when I saw it, I thought I'd go. I'm not going to comment any more on this workshop becasue it would be SO much to cover.

SOAR!

The theme of the confrence this year was "Your time to Soar!". what's strange is they didn't draw the connection for you like had been done in years past. the connection of the speaking, and the theme was a little vague. Soar is refering to raising the level of faith, to pull yourself to new heights and bring yourself closer to God.

Speaker: Laurie Polich

she was the main speaker at the confrence, she used analogies and metphores well... example, talking about bunjee cords being used to tie books to your bike, or holding you in a jump. When you tie your books to your bike(her personal reference), you don't have to trust them, partially becasue you'd like to saee your books fall, so you'd have an excuse not to read them. But when you are tied to a bunjee cord, and it is the only thing keeping you from going splat on the ground, it's pretty important. now how can this be a connection to God? how about how much YOU invest in your faith, books are not a big investment, nether is going to church on sundays.but when you truly put your life in Gods hands, it means you have given up everything and put all your trust that God will hold you. She also did your classic "Call to Christianity" where they say "everyone who does not have Jesus in your heart, but wants to change that tonight, please come down to the stage", and there were a lot of people, not all can be expected to have been completely true, but God moves, he uses time like this to bring his children to his side. God is simply amazing.

Ted and Lee

Comedians who act out biblical scenes. playing the apostles Andrew and Peter, they did several skits that led through some of Jesus's miracles, through his crucifiction. they were good at allowing humor, yet not being disrespectful to the stories they portrayed...

With the kind of things you see in times liek these, it's not possibe to say God does not exist, or does not work in this world, the Love of God is apperent in everything, I pray for anyone who does not yet understand. May God Bless you all...

Laterzz
for info on IMPACT, go to http://www.mmyfc.org/

at it again

2005-03-16T12:06:00.000-05:00

make an IMPACT 2005

2005-03-16T10:23:00.000-05:00

ok, sorry it's been so long since my last post, but it's not entirely my fault... I made a post last thursday, but it deleted it before it got published, and I didn't feel like typing it again...

well, the big news today is that there's only 2, coun them, 2! days till impact :-D I can't wait! for those of you that don't know, IMPACT is a annual christian youth confrence in the OC(Ocean City,MD... fooled ya ;) ) but it's a great weekend retreat with lots of music, worship, workshops, and a lot of big time discusions. it's a lot of fun, and a great time to get closer to God... Worship this year is being lead by David Crowder Band, and the concert is superchic[k]... I never luistened to super, but I willing to give em' a shot ;) concerts are always better then listeneing to CDs anywho...

the only problem now is... IMPACT is not till friday, and it's still wednesday, with 2 more days of school, which has not been a good week so far... I already had 2 tests, another one today, a speech that I was supposed to have ready yesterday, but was not called to speak, so I have till thursday at least... but I need a break... can't wait to get to the ocean...

"and I'm good good good to go! and I'm good good good to go! gotta get away, get away from all of my mistakes..."
-RK- I so Hate Consequences

Laterzz

another survey thing

2005-03-04T10:46:00.000-05:00

I think this is a "myspce.com" survey, but I'll fill it out here cause it's kind interesting:
wanted to try this on here

F i r s t s

-First best friend: I think his name was Brad... sad how I barley remember...
-First car: it would help to have a driver's licence before I buy a car...
-First kiss on the lips: unexsisting
-First real kiss: ditto
-First break-up: uhm, I've broken down? does that count?
-First screen name: dang, I've had so many I don't even remember which one I started with...
-First self purchased album: Newsboys: take me to your leader
-First funeral: my granddad...
-First pets: uhm... a parakeet... and it never learned to talk...
-First true love: what is true love? isn't that the person you should marry? can't say I'm there yet...
-First enemy: Steve Perkins... don't make me think about him...
-First big trip: Disney world when I was like 6...
-First music you remember hearing in your house: uhm... my mom would always play various artist tape, I don't even remember who all she had

L a s t s

-Last car ride: to school, where I am right now ;)
-Last kiss: unexisting
-Last good cry: shrug
-Last movie seen: Independece Day... but it was the cheep TV version
-Last beverage drank: Drinking a pepsi right now... would have been somthing else, but only pepsi offers free itunes downloads:D
-Last food consumed: PBJ on a toasted english muffin...
-Last crush: you really think I'd tell you that? secrets are meant to stay that way ;)
-Last phone call: Verizon tech suport... was on hold for an hour and a half, then my call got dropped... I called back, and 20 mins later, my phone battery died with no warning... the third time I got through, and they couldn't help me >:O
-Last time showered: an hour and a half ago
-Last shoes worn: uhm, I'm wearing my grey sneakers right now...
-Last item bought: the pepsi I am drinking

R e l a t i o n s h i p s

-Who are your very best friends Nowadayz? uhm... you know who you are!
-Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? somtimes I wish, but I have patience that God will lead me to the right person when the time is right...

F a s h i o n S t u f f

-Where is your favorite place to shop? Best Buy... I'm an electronics guy
-Any s or s? as was everyone else, I am utterly confused by this question

S p e c i f i c s

-Do you do ?: ^refrence above answer^
-What kind of shampoo do you use?: Pert Plus...
-What are you most scared of?: uhm, public specking? lol, jk... uhm, I don't have any major fears, just a bunch of little ones, so I can't pick
-What are you listening to right now?: Trapt: StillFrame
-Where do you want to get married?: whereever she does...
-How many buddies are online right now?:I'm not on aim, not allowed to be on this puter...
-What would you change about yourself? I want more self motivation... I'm such a procrastinator...

F a v o r i t e s

-Color: Black...
-Food: uhm... good food?... I know! llama! mmmmmm...llama!
-Boys' names: I DON'T KNOW!!!(or maybe I do, but that's for me to know)
-Girls' names: ^see above answer^
-Subjects in school: the ones I get As in...art was fun
-Animals: squirrel, hamster, seel, kacheek...
-Sports: football, the only one I'm good at, and I'm somewhat an obsessive fan
-Perfume: HELLO!?!? I'm a guy!
-Cologne: I have this stuff I never wear, I don't know what it's called

H a v e Y o u E v e r

-Taken a bath with someone? uhm, as a baby/ todler
-Smoked? I DON'T WANT CANCER!!!!
-Made yourself throw up?: it always happens the natural way O:)
-Skinny dipped?: nope
-Been in love?: is this like that true love question from earlier?*glares*
-Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: not recently O:)
-Pictured a crush ?: uhm? how do you do that?
-Actually seen a crush ?: ^see above answer^
-Cried when someone died?: no one close to me has died in the past many years... so prolly, but not recently
-Lied?: ask a stupid question!...
-Fallen for your best friend?: what is the meaning of this word fallen? like fallen over into a puddle of mud? maybe... fallen in love? no...
-Been rejected?: have any of you rejected me that I don't know about?
-Rejected someone? I've rejected an offer to go somewhere/do somthing O:)
-Used someone?: not in the sense I belive this question to be meaning
-Done something you regret?: many times...

C u r r e n t

-Clothes: Black jeans, a grey fleece shirt, with a black ravens jersey over top...
-Music: Lifehouse: Somewhere IN Between... from my blog!
-Make-up: 0
-Annoyance: the printer behind me humming, then roaring as it prints...
-Smell: hair glue... smells sorta like regular glue till it drys...
-Favorite Artist: Relient K, Lifehouse, switchfoot, Newsboys, Jars of Clay...
-Desktop picture: this puter has the ccbc standard desktop... my regular puter has a pic of a sunset behind some trees... a friend of mine took it... ask me and I'll show it to you...
-DVD in player: I think it's empty

L a s t P e r s o n

-Hugged: does *hugs* count?
-You IMed: Adam, he was telling me not to use the snow on the DST, cause it screws it up... maybe I'll use it here!:-D! I think I will >:)

A r e Y o u

-Open Minded: on some things, but not on others
-Arrogant: I can be, but I try not to...
-Interesting: I talk to myself, but if I was someone else, I wouldn't talk to me
-Moody: can be, but not usually
-Hardworking: at work, yes, and school, no...
-Organized: what does this word mean? it is obviously not in my vocabulary
-Healthy: *eats a ton and a half of junk food* why yes! of course!
-Attractive?: meh... that's not for me to decide...
-Bored: YES! WHY DO YOU THINK I AM FILLING THE OUT?!
-Responsible: can be when I want to be...
-Obsessed: about some things...
-Angry: not now... but it happens
-Sad: Again, not now... but it happens
-Disappointed: not now... but it happens
-Hyper: NO! I"M NOT HYPER! STOP CALLING ME HYPER! OOH! LOOK AT THE COLORS! BEING HYPER IS SO FUN! TOO BAD I"M NOT HYPER RIGHT NOW! HEHEHE!
-Trusting: can be... but not always
-Talkative: can be... but not always
-Legal: for what? I'm 17 if that answers your question...

W h o D o Y o u W a n n a

-Kill: Satan
-Slap: Verizon
-Look Like: myself
-Talk to Online: Christi, Crystal, and other k-teamers... most everyone else I can talk to in real life, or at least on the phone(frequently)

W h i c h I s B e t t e r

-Coke or Pepsi: pepsi cola, coke products
-Flowers or Candy flowers: mmmmmmm... candy
-Tall or Short: uhm... I'm tall, but I have no prefrence...
-Thick or Thin: just right
-Long or Short: long for pleasent things, short for unpleasent ones

R a n d o m

-In the morning i am: asleep
-All i need is: sleep
-What do you notice on a person first: sleep...lol, jk, uhm, eyes, then hair? hair is wierd cause I have wierd hair...:p
-Last person you danced with: myself... dancing alone is much more fun ;)
-Worst question to ask to a crying person: can I have a glass of water? you seem to be overflowing with it...
-Who makes you laugh the most: homer simpson lol
-How do i make u laugh the most? uhm... tv?
-Who makes you smile? all my friends!
-Who gives you a funny feeling when you see them? a lot of people... not to name names...
-Who do you have a crush on: maybe I do maybe I don't but I not saying a word
-Who has a crush on you? how should I know?!

D o Y o u E v e r

-Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you? I have in the past... not frequently
-Wait to see if i don't IM someone first if they will IM me? I try to beat them to it, caus I know I wil get them...
-Wish you were a member of the opposite sex? uhm... isn't it not a matter of wishing anymore? just needing the money for surgury... but still, that's sick
-Wish you were younger: dude! I wanna be older! I not some middle aged person in a mid-life crisis! I wanna be 18, not go back from 40 to 29! sheesh!

2 down, 1 to go

2005-03-03T14:28:00.000-05:00

test that it. I have taken 2 today, and have another later. the first one in my psychology class, I am not confident about. I don't think I did really well, but I'll see when I get it back on tuesday... the second one in astronomy, I know I did well, it was all multiple choice, answer 50 out of 55 question, and cross the other 5 out... well, I will be upset if I didn't get an A on that test...

next I have speech class, which we are having a vocab quiz that was orrigionally scheduled for last week, but a snowday moved it till tuesday, and he decided to show a video then instead... so now it's tonight...

have you ever written a song, then gotten that song stuck in your head? well I have had one of my own written songs stuck in my head since last night. I mentioned it on a message board, and now I keep singing it, even though I don't really have music for it...

"Is this my destiny?
do what you want with me
cause when you're in control
it's the only way I'm free"

sing at yall
Laterzz

Walking in a winter wonderland...

2005-03-01T11:25:00.000-05:00

SNOW!!!!!!!

SNOW!!!!!!!

SNOW!!!!!!!

WHEN WILL IT END!? it keeps coming!

at least I was off school yesterday, and had a late start today...

hello all my loyal readers(all like 2 of you)... I have been kinda, not busy... I not had much going on so I hadn't blogged inb a while...

I really bored right now...

can you tell?

yawn...

I'm at school...

waiting for my class...

what's up with you?

that sounds fun...

*stops being incredibly random*

Laterzz

some fun stuff

2005-02-24T18:25:00.000-05:00

discover what candy you are @ quiz me

The Completely Pointless Personality Quiz

Are you Addicted to the Internet?

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Life in general

2005-02-22T11:53:00.000-05:00

life has been wierd... work has been frustrating... school has been even more frustration... guess blogging is my refuge... at least I can say that I am doing fairly well in my classes... having gotten a 11/10 on a speech quiz, and a 48/50 on a holistic heath test, and having gotten only perfect grades in astronomy(though anyone who hasn't gotten perfect grades in that class must be napping durring class)... I think the real test will be my speech tonight, which I have not been practicing, even with the 5 day extention we were given... as long as I don't screw up the whole group, or the group doesn't screw me up... oh no! negative thinking will make you fail! oh no! I'm learing a bunch of crap I don't believe in in holistic heath! she is very odd(my teacher) she had us feeling each other's auras yesterday... of course I felt nothing, and wasn't shy about saying I felt nothign, as were the perople who's auras I was supposed to be feeling... also, she expectsus to believe that when she was holding a threaded bead over our "chacras" that it was spinning by itself, when she was clearly making it spin... shurg, it's an easy class, so what if I get absolutly nothing out of it...

the one class I am not likeing, and not currently doing well in is my psychology class... I have only taken one quiz, but I bombed it... she went over the answers and I think I got a 60...:-\... but I have some great ideas for my papers that will help me...

change of subject, sunday, I had stuff to do... I finished my FAFSA which I mailed yesterday, and I also dyed my hair... what color you ask?well as many of you have known i recently had blonde highlights in the front, but as some may not have known, I really wanted them blue... and now that my hair had been growing out, it was time for me to redo the black, so I thought I'd try the blue again, which had failed befoer, that why I was left with blonde... this time the blue worked... it didn't quite give me the affect I wanted, but I still have the front of my hair blue :-D aren't I cool? (psst!, he's NOT cool)

gotta go somewhere and stay un-cool

Laterzz

I'm just bored

2005-02-17T14:55:00.000-05:00

I found this on someone's blog, and right now I am bored enough to spend the time to fill it out..:

1. First Name: Tim
2. Were you named after anyone? Only my middle name, after my grandfather on my mothers side.
3. Do you wish on stars? not usually...
4. When did you last cry? not trying to be all macho or anything, but I don't remember...
5. Do you like your handwriting? I have handwriting? I thought I was just making little lines on the paper that no one could understand...
6. What is your favorite lunchmeat? uhm...chicken?
7. What is your birth date? 4/7/87
8. What is your most embarrassing CD? why would I be embarrassed about a CD?...
9. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? I don't know me well enough to make that decision...
10. Are you a daredevil? uhm, prolly not, I not afraid to do some extreem stuff, but not a "daredevil"...
11. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? No, but I don't get told that many secrets anyway...
12. Do looks matter? as long as someone looks like a human, not to me...
13. How do you release anger? a lot of times I don't, but sometimes I just go for a walk and talk myself through it...
14. Where is your second home? the house I am living in now... my first home is waiting for me in heaven...
15. Do you trust others easily? I trust close friends, but not a whole lot unless I know the person... but am I that hard to get to know?...
16. What was your favorite toy as a child? prolly my little toy guitar... I used to watch raffee videos and pretend to play along...
17. What class in high school do you think was total waste of time? CINS 101... I learned nothing cause I already knew it all...
18. Do you have a journal? just this one you are reading right now...
19. Do you use sarcasm a lot? NO! of course not!(sarcasm is evident in voice)
20. What are your nicknames? I go by TJ, that started as an online "alias" but I've started using it elsewhere, any others are for me to know, and you not to know...
21. Would you bungee jump? Yes... I said I'm open to extreem stuff... bungee jumping in not daredevilish...
22. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? depends on which shoes... my boots, yes I have to to get them off... my sneakers, no the laces are so long I have tied them behind my ankles(sounds funny, but it's true), and my work shoes, no, they are loose enough for me not to have to...
23. Do you think that you are strong? Physically, not very, but I can hold my own... I have good mental strength :-D...
24.What is your favorite ice cream flavor? uhm, peanut butter fudge, but that's not a common flavor, so I usually get chocolate.
25. Shoe Size? 11 1/2
26. Red or pink? My freinds would say pink, but that's not my thing...
28. Who do you miss most? hmmm... that's a toughy, I honestly don't know...
29. Do you want everyone you send this to, to send it back? (the person I got it from wrote)"I think I’ll post it on my Xanga instead of sending it out. But yeah, people can respond to it if you want, or copy and paste it onto your blog/xanga!" ditto... just I put it in my blog, I don't use xanga...
30. What color pants and shoes are you wearing? Black jeans, and black sneakers with rid stripes... nothing fancy...
31. What are you listening to right now? silence... though I have Relient K "mantain conciousness" stuck in my head...
32. Last thing you ate? CCBC curly fries...and a siera mist on the side:-)...
33 If you were a color what would you be? Black... what else did you expect here? I AM NOT SAYING PINK! *glares at those who understand*
34. What is the weather like right now? "Sunny with a high of 75!" actually, it's overcast with a high of 41...
35. Last person you talked to on the phone? Jane Harwick... if that's what you wanna call her;-)
36. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? wow, so much, bus it soooo depends on who... some offer a bright face at the world, others need cheering up... some can be either at different times...
37. Do you like the person who sent this to you? wasn't sent to me, but I got it off christi's blog... and of course!! why would I be looking at the blog of someone I don't like...*hugs* lots of love christi!
38. What's your favorite Drink? Sprite... and chocolate milk is a close second... and water is always good:-)...
39. Favorite Sport? Football, easy... I spend way too much time making sure I know everything that's going on in the world of football...
40. Hair Color? I'm a natural medium brown, but right now it's black with blonde highlinghting the front... looks like my head is on fire:-D...
41. Eye Color? Green... stop looking at my eyes!...
42. Do you wear contacts? don't need em' and I like my color...so no...
43. Favorite Food? dude! wat too many things... pizza, ice cream, gummy bears, soda, *stops naming food*...
44. Last Movie You Watched? The Manchurean Candidate... was good, but was kinda creepy...
45. Favorite Day Of The Year? the one where I get to talk to you...
46. Scary Movies or Happy Endings? Happy endings are too cliche, but I not a fan of "horror" movies either...
47. Summer or Winter? SUMMER!!! even though I still have school sometimes...
48. Hugs OR Kisses? *huggles*
49. What Is Your Favorite Dessert? gummy bears? and ice cream... together... mix em' up... nummerzz...
50.What Books Are You Reading? Just the ones for school... do I look like I have extra time on my hands?;-)...
51.What's On Your Mouse pad? I's black with a grey circle and it say... *drum roll*... DELL...
52. What Did You Watch Last night on TV? Smallville, then the news... oh, and the terps losing to NC state:-(...
53. Favorite Smell? somthing that smells good?...
54. Favorite Sounds? Music blaring... any good artists...
55. What's the furthest you've been from home? uhm, LA in Cali... for my aunt's wedding...
56. Have you ever told your crush u liked him/her? nope... never will though, cause I don't like them anymore(in that way), and I don't see them anymore... been like a year...
57. Are you ready to be done? yes and no... yes cause this has already been really long, and no becasue it was lots of fun, and it also kinda helped me look at myself:-) maybe some people reading this will be able to do the same:-P...

Laterzz

life after death, AND TAXES

2005-02-14T16:14:00.000-05:00

why does applying for college have to be so hectic... I had to do my taxes today so I could have my income info so I could fill out my fafsa(free application for federal student aid) form... that wasn't a big problem, but having to deal with that confuzling form is annoying... but it can save me lots of money if I'm lucky... speaking of money, I work in 15 minutes, get to make a little more money... but not having fun doing it... work is ironic that way...

today has been really hectic with dealing with the above mentioned, and then class, and then work... why is my life so complicated? anywayz, the fore mentioned work is calling me, so I must go.

Laterzz

DULL!

2005-02-10T15:52:00.000-05:00

so I figure I will try to keep a regular update on here, so today will be one... the endless cycle of work and school is continuing... school has not shown much difficulty yet, but that might change(quiz tonight?)...

I find I spend most of my time at school... long breaks in between classes(I'm on one now:-P)... I also have had to walk home a few times... not fun... believe me, you don't want to leave school at 2, get home a lil after 3, and leave for work at 4... no time to relax... but that was my monday...

is my life dull enough for you? I have 3 days to talk about, but I can't think of anything to say...oh wellz

I feel like, I would like, to be somwhere else doing somthing that matters, and I'll admit here, while I sit here my mind wastes away and my doubts start to gather...
-Relient K, More Than Useless-

to all my friends, have a great day, and I hope reading this didn't bore you to death... prolly wasn't even long enough to do that...

Laterzz

SUPER BOWL!

2005-02-07T11:17:00.000-05:00

YAY!!! THE PATS WON !!! not that I care about the pats, I should be saying: YAY! THE EAGLES GOT THEIR BUTTS KICKED!!! but anyway... I like superbowl parties... muy bueno...
there's prolly no one reading this, so I'll keep it short ;-)

Laterzz

why are things so comlpicated?

2005-02-06T11:09:00.000-05:00

having taken a little bit of time to look it over, I have found that syncing the look of my site to this will be quite a challenge... I still plan on doing so, but it's not going to be dona in the near future. but until then I will correct my links to bring peopel here to acces my blog. also, 1 more item, I will also not be syncing this page to run with frames until my entire layout if fixed, so if you acces the frames portion of my site, use the links in the frame to leave this page, if you use the above navigation, it can leave my frame sitting there afte3r you've left my page.(you can also click the "NO-FRAMES" link on the bottom to return to my non frames section.

sihj

ok, so it's super bowl sunday... and for the first time in many years, I have very little reason to watch. I declared that I would not watch if it ended up being pittsburhg Vs. Philly, which is not the case... but the pats are gunna open can of butt-whoop on the eagles, so it's not a big deal... anyways, the comercials still make it worth it.

(sings self written song) how can you tell me? how can you say, that we've come to the end of the ride?

Laterzz

Re-Vamp

2005-02-05T22:21:00.000-05:00

Ok... so this is new... having seen from others, the niiiceness of this sort of thing, I decided to start this... well, anyway, I am going to take this, get a good layout for it, then make a seemless transision to my geocities site... right now I don't have much to say, plus this is sorta a test for me, so I gunna stop here.

Laterzz